Currently Listening Woven & Spun By Nichole Nordeman Gratitude see related

The Lord has done some work on my heart in the last 24 hours.  I was bitter betty, and I know that the Lord does not honor that, and it will never profit my life to act like a big spoiled brat....so, I have stopped throwing a tantrum in the floor, and instead took my requests and burdens to Jesus, and left them there.  I decided that instead of crushing and violently disposing of my newly liberated hopeless romantic notions, I would give them to Christ for safe keeping.  I fear it isn't the evil men out there who would destroy them--it is me.  I will destroy them, but instead, I would have Christ hold them until the time is right. He is in control, and I know this.  It's just difficult sometimes when I (being the spoiled brat that I am) don't see the truth. When I don't see the truth of the matter that it's about Jesus Christ and Him alone--not about me--how shocking.  That he has a plan for me to grow into his likeness and to honor him with my life, bringing others (including my children) into a saving knowledge of himself.  I, however, become caught up in the fog of my own desire.  Not that my desires are entirely evil--all I really want is a Godly man to share my life with.  A man to help me parent these up and coming teenagers in my house.  God will provide.  In his own time. In his own way. And whatever that is...it is well with my soul.