Currently Listening Into the Woods (2002 Broadway Revival Cast) By Stephen Sondheim, Vanessa Williams, John McMartin see related

I'm just starting here.  It's funny.  I've been journaling for years...you know, in a small book with lines on the pages and a pen.  Foreign these days, I realize, but I have page after page of journal entry.  I guess I decided to step into this century and become a sheep.  Doing what everyone else is doing when it comes to journaling. 

So here I start a blog that maybe someone could read.  I have read some others, and they have really inspired me in some ways.  I've always considered myself a writer, though I haven't written anything worth talking about in several years.  After reading some of the online entries, I realized I have a lot of catching up to do.  I am not a writer like some others are writers, but I aspire to be.  I plan to read more.  To love more, and to stop being so cynical....especially when it comes to men....I'm trying really hard on that one. 

The sermon this morning was about forgiveness, and I realized I need to forgive the entire male species for something they can't even help--being male.  Being the way God made them.  I wrote the words "forgiveness vs. safety" in my notes.  Sometimes forgiveness seems unsafe, and I use the word "seems" because I know that I am not writing truth.  I know that my rock and my fortress are Christ alone, not the angry walls I have so carefully constructed around my heart.  Sometimes "seems" is so powerful.  It's a powerful pretense that I must get rid of. 

That is my journey.  The one I will plot here.  To forgive every male that has ever been born.  I do think my sons are exempt from the "seems," but maybe it only seems that way...